So, I just got back from Arizona, my most memorable/favorite vacation. I had a blast. Those 10 days made me feel like a queen! (Yes, he says princess is not enough). I got to see the Grand Canyon. We stayed at the Bell Rock Inn - oh! So romantic hotel in Sedona. We took the Dolly Boat around the Canyon Lake where I had the best chicken fingers. Being his date for his cousins wedding was so much fun (I wore my first strapless dress!). Hanging out with his family made me feel so loved. The walk down Mill Ave. was so much fun. He took me to his familys favorite El Charo, saying its better than Taco Bell - I have to say it was pretty good. We had Al Roma - yummy pasta. Fazzolis had the softest bread sticks. Sonic had the best coke-floats. And how can I forget the Chicken Fried Steak at Village Inn (haha!). My favorite was the French-toasts he made while I was still in bed sleeping. YEAH we did eat out allot. Ha! But most importantly I was with HIM.
Things have been real tough these last few days.
I cry while I drive recalling all the fun car rides we had together. I cry when my Earth Science teacher talks about the different kind of rocks in Grand Canyon. I cry while I see white trucks. I cry when the new Young Jezee song comes on the radio. I cry when I see a guy in a polo shirt. I cry when I realize I have no one to hold me. I bawl when I lay in bed, alone.
My heart aches
I need you, miss you, want you.
Thinking about you.
Im real hurt. Friends who said will be here for me when I need them have not even come and visited me. I just need someone to listen to me. But it breaks my heart because I realize they are not there for me.
Im lonely.
I miss everything about US. I cant wait to see you - n be in your arms.
He always said "You No Pussy. I Pussy. You Strronng" in a funny accent to make me smile whenever I would cry around him.
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